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Love the universe and it will love you back


On the first day of Leap Year, my country gave to me election of the presidency.

On the second day of Leap Year, my country gave to me worldwide Olympic Games and election of the presidency.

On the third day of Leap Year, my country gave to me a pandemic virus, worldwide Olympic Games and election of the presidency.

On the fourth day of Leap Year, my country gave to me a random Royal scandal, a pandemic virus, worldwide Olympic Games and election of the presidency.

On the fifth day of Leap Year, my country gave to me rigged primaries, a random Royal scandal, a pandemic virus, worldwide Olympic Games and election of the presidency.

(don’t forget the natural disasters on election day…)


Random rhymes

I don’t claim blood or cuz, I prefer to flip the script. But technically I am disabled, so I guess you could say I’m a crip…

They’ll toast you to your face, then roast you in cyberspace. And if you don’t do what they want you to, they’ll ghost you all over the place…

Random Business Ideas

A club/venue focused on the next generation and their unique dreams, desires, beliefs and abilities. For folks on the spectrum & those with PTSD or anxiety issues which prevent them from feeling comfortable and safe in a common social setting, I want to utilize technology & ar capabilities to create highly unique and personalized experiences which can be enjoyed simultaneously in a shared common space without disrupting others in the venue outside of your immediate space.

I’d like to offer many options for Wi-Fi and Bluetooth enabled equipment to be utilized, demoed, rented and/or purchased, as well as options within the system itself to listen to various virtual and/or physical djs & visual effects. Patrons enjoying the same experience/playlist etc. could easily find and recognise each other due to led lights in the headphones flashing in synchronized colors unique to each. This would allow for space within the venue to naturally fill/expand or diminish along with the natural flow of business and that night’s guests preferences. This type of atmosphere would also allow for more casual guests, say those watching a game or having a more intimate evening with friends or just wanting dinner & casual conversation in a fun, unique atmosphere to consider our establishment for their needs as well.

Expounding upon this concept, I’d also like a smaller room/venue to hold private events, group meetings or even classic “analog” club nights. I’d like to offer a reading/research corner for patrons desiring to learn something new or even just those who need a place to do their homework. I’d like to have a small library of select hard copies of works that expand the mind and provoke thought & conversation, as well as a handful of cubicle pc terminals & full high-speed Wi-Fi for any personal devices of the patrons.


A Letter To You

I wanna say how much I miss you, but you can’t miss what you never had. I guess life’s just kicking my ass right now & I’m just feeling kinda sad. Mad cuz I let you slip right through my fingers, and the pain still lingers. You fell through the cracks in my sanity and I can’t disagree, I just wish that I had that chance back. A chance to be who I really am, a chance for you to see me at my best. Instead of these nightmares of how I’ve behaved that just fill me up with rage & regrets.

But I digress…

I had more thoughts that made more sense, but they came so fast: they just came & they went. But none of it matters, there’s no argument that I acted a fool and the time that we spent was all just wasted on my ignorance.

I guess I just miss you. But you can’t really miss what you never had. I guess I’m just sad and honestly mad because I’ve spent my life giving to others, living for others. And all that I wanted was to be a good mother. But when it most mattered, I quickly discovered that no one was there: even when when I recovered. And I’ve never had a legitimate lover. Why would you be any different from the others? I’ve always been alone so I sit & I suffer the consequence of my discontent. Even when I repent, no one else gives a shit so why should you? You were never my boo. Or even my friend, I depended too much on you.

Now none of these words even make any sense & it wasn’t at all my original intent but I’ve forgotten the lines that brought me here to begin with so fuck it. I’m done.

And even if you don’t deserve it, you’re still my #1.

Peace ☮✌☮

Love (A Working Title…)

All love ends in loss: of connection, of contact, of life. But a life lived longing for love unrequited is a life lived in misery and strife.

For love to endure, it must be often felt & rarely spoken, as words are unnecessary at best. What purpose have they such a force to convey, whose power too great to be verbally expressed?

So better is love to give but not seek, than to seek never learning how to give. And better it is to live but not speak, than to speak love that is never truly lived.


I really need to update my site- even I haven’t perused it in years. Now that I know all my friends are fake, I should have plenty of time & inspiration for content.

“All My Friends Are Fake”…hmmm… Has a nice ring to it…


So much I’d like to say, but honestly: I’m too tired to even try anymore. You stopped listening long ago & even now you only hear what you want. And you respond far less still.

I’ve reinvestigated & realized that you were nothing more than a glitch in the Matrix: the result of my own indecision & poor choices. Why can’t I rid my soul of you even still!? As you so well pointed out: we haven’t truly connected in years, “literally years…”

Ah yes, now I remember: it is because I bound our souls years ago at a time in which hope was still very much alive. Could it be that this experience carried actual consequences? Who knows? But then, there was that one boy who pissed me off in eighth grade that one week I’d gone to my eccentric, ‘free spirit’ aunt’s house & we’d gotten books on magic at the library and made voo-doo dolls. He was absent that next week: fallen sick with abdominal pain. Hmmm…

But nah. That stuff is just hokum, right?

Think I need an exorcist to cast out your demons or angels or spiritual wtfever it is about you that consumes me. Cause I. Am. Tired. And I’m ready to move on.

Eden, West & East Africa

For those of you who haven’t heard, scientists have now pinpointed the exact location of the original Eden- or the garden of life into which God created (Hu)man: two small tribes, one in West Africa and one in East. DNA testing and genetic research have pinpointed not only the tribes, but also the approx. timeframe us modern-day humans, homo sapien sapiens, evolved from the previous species’ (plural) of homo erectus- all of whom eventually became extinct.

Now I’ll not waste my time looking up facts or searching for citations: just Wikipedia any words you don’t already know like a normal person in today’s world. Then Google all of that stuff to make sure it’s really all true too! Because, as we all know, if it’s on the internet, then it must be true!!!

Either way, I know you’ll find all the “proof” you seek that the facts I’m presenting here actually are backed by that: scientific fact. The theories with which all of the facts are tied together are mine and mine alone.

In choosing to give life to them and share them with all who care to read, I am in absolutely no way attempting to change your mind, beliefs, theories- or anyone else’s, for that matter. But if what you read on my blog just happens to make a lot more sense than maybe what you’d hear in church, or mass, or temple, or synagogue, or whatever the title of your typical religious institution for the indoctrination of whatever faith you’ve either chosen or has been thrust upon you by life, the Universe, or your parents- good! It is supposed to.

Now, let’s get back to the topic of this post: Adam, Eve, and a garden in Eden. Actually, there were many gardens already- and many, many “Adam”s & “Eve”s. Just go & reread the book of Genesis and recognize, once you get to the story of “Adam & Eve,” that you’ve already passed scripture stating the creation of all humans, who were then sent forth to “be fruitful and multiply.”

The story of the creation of the first modern-day human male & female seems like a fairytale as it’s written in the book of Genesis. And rightly so- since, essentially, it is. Modern humans can, however, be traced to a single male and female ancestor. But, when the first of each is born, it hardly impacts the whole of human existence because their differences were never so apparent as to cause them to even be thought of by other humans as a new subspecies. Back then, we still lived in caves or mud huts- some humans resembled our cousins, the apes, more than what we humans look like today.

But, nevertheless, all of it really can be traced back to two individuals- even though, chances are, neither ever laid eyes on the other because they were born on opposite coasts and the timing was horrible! Some experts posit they could’ve been at least a few millennia apart. So who is this star-crossed power-couple who should be all the rage in talk & other daytime television!? They’re best known as Y-Chromosomal Adam and Mitochondrial Eve.

We know for a fact that an African-American man here in the states is a direct descendant of Y-C Adam: he inadvertently joined the study by submitting his DNA for ancestral tracing at and, as it turned out, his Y-Chromosome was so unique, it warranted further and more in-depth investigation until it was found in about half a dozen of the male members of a small tribe in one of the smallest territories in West Africa. Mitochondrial Eve, on the other hand, has been traced to an area in the east, closer to where much that was recorded in “sacred scripture” is believed to have taken place.

Personally, I believe that the main difference between the new species of humanity and previous ones was the capacity for individual thought, and/or the ability to manifest, pass upon, and/or defy the judgment of self and others- including objects & circumstances beyond our control like the weather. It was in passing this ability on to others, especially for personal gains in wealth, power and dictation of civilization, that us humans “ate the fruits” of our labor, once we gained the “knowledge of good and evil.”

See, before any of this higher-level thinking took place, humanity was bound by instinct and emotion. Our capacity for abstract thought didn’t develop until last- hence the eating of the “fruit.” But once we could feel both good and bad, we became all the more capable of behaving both ways as well. It was at this time, in the history of evolution, that people gained what we now call free-will. We realized we had choices in the matter of life, and- sadly to say- a huge majority of us, having hearts not already filled with God’s words, but having minds that were all the more vulnerable to deception & lies became the first of the sheep who’d rather follow blindly towards a God who may someday free us of all our suffering & turmoil, rather than lean on our own understanding to figure out how to navigate this existence we’re not even able to comprehend.

And how convenient that, in the Old Testament, we are instructed many times over not to trust ourselves or our own understanding, but to seek the Truth in all we do by obeying a God that only talks to a very select few. See now how that clearly goes to show that basically all religions of today stemmed from the masses blindly following the few prophets & others deemed worthy enough to hear the voice of God!?

I’m not saying that means they had been faking or even mistaken in the things they said or declared, even a bunch of nonsensical ramblings or so-called laws God Himself felt he (Moses…) worthy to impose on the whole of humanity at that time. Oh, wait, no…I’m pretty sure the laws & ceremonial requirements were only meant for the people of Israel, right? See now that’s an interesting thing I think people of all faiths and religions should be made aware of: the laws were never meant to apply to the masses!!!

But I digress. My point in all of this was to simply shed a little light on the subject of Adam & Eve and the Garden of Eden. From a scientific standpoint, it all makes sense here in my mind. But then again, I’m just a crazy chick!!!

No one should ever listen to the rantings of a crazy chick!!!

Lol 😉

I’m all over the page on this now & have gotten so far off-topic that I’m not sure exactly what it was I’d set out to write. So I’m stopping here.

*To Be Continued…

An original work by *crptnite*

All content is to be considered fictional and any likeness to any persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental- all truths are said in jest 😉

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